You know those moments when it feels like something (or someone) is invisibly nudging you in a certain direction? Those moments when you know something life-changing is about to happen, even though you aren’t completely sure how? Or those moments when you look back and think, wow, two weeks ago I had no idea whatsoever that this would be happening and now……. These past two weeks I’ve experienced a series of nudges that have led me to do something that is incredibly far out of

Lately I’ve had a new image pop into my mind when I picture my grief. Most of the time, it’s like I’m on a pontoon boat in a calm bay. There are other people with me on the pontoon and we are happy. The sun is shining, we are laughing, eating, drinking, looking ahead of the boat with joy. Underneath, the water is deep and dark. I know it’s there and that I might fall into it at any moment. But instead, I enjoy the sun on my face, content to know that the water will most likel