Lately I’ve had a new image pop into my mind when I picture my grief. Most of the time, it’s like I’m on a pontoon boat in a calm bay. There are other people with me on the pontoon and we are happy. The sun is shining, we are laughing, eating, drinking, looking ahead of the boat with joy. Underneath, the water is deep and dark. I know it’s there and that I might fall into it at any moment. But instead, I enjoy the sun on my face, content to know that the water will most likel